"At first I was somewhat startled by the Koran’s
concern not only with matters spiritual but also with many seemingly trivial
mundane aspects of life; but in time I began to understand that if man were
indeed an integral unity of body and soul – as Islam insisted he was – no
aspect of his life could be too ‘trivial’ to come within the purview of
religion. With all this, the Koran never let its followers forget that the life
of this world was only one stage of man’s way to a higher existence, and that
his ultimate goal was of a spiritual nature. Material prosperity, it said, is
desirable but not an end in itself; and therefore man’s appetites, though
justified in themselves, must be restrained and controlled by moral
consciousness. This consciousness ought to relate not merely to man’s relation
with God but also to his relations with men; not only to the spiritual
perfection of the individual but also to the creation of such social conditions
as might be conductive to the spiritual development of all, so that all might
live in fullness."
In Egypt, he started learning about Islam by discussing
various issues with Shaikh Mustafa al Maraghi, while at the same time learning
Arabic with the help of a student of Al-Azher University. The more he studied
Islam and appreciated its teachings and programme of life, the more he realized
how much Muslims had deviated from their religion. He, however, did not
consider accepting Islam. “I did not consider it desirable for an intelligent man to conform all
his thinking and his entire view of life to a system not devised by himself.”
He wondered whether it is necessary for one to belong to one particular faith –
“Tell me, Shaykh Mustafa,” I asked
my erudite friend Al-Maraghi on one occasion, “why should it be necessary to
confine oneself to one particular teaching and one particular set of injunctions?
Mightn’t it be better to leave all ethical inspiration to one’s inner voice?”
“What thou art really asking, my young brother, is
why should there be any institutional religion. The answer is simple. Only very
few people – only prophets – are really able to understand the inner voice that
speaks in them. Most of us are trammelled by our personal interests and desires
– and if everyone were to follow only what his own heart dictated, we would
have complete moral chaos and could never agree on any mode of behaviour. Thou
couldst ask, of course, whether there are no exceptions to the general rule –
enlightened people who feel they have no need to be “guided” in what they
consider to be right or wrong; but then, I ask thee, would not many, very many
people claim that exceptional right for themselves? And what would be the
result?”
After staying in Egypt for sometime he set out again for
another long journey – this time traversing Syria, Transjordan, Persia,
Afghanistan, and Central Asian states, visiting their streets and bazaars as he
moved on. It is in this second journey through Muslims lands that he started
thinking about Islam more and more.
“Every day new impressions broke over me; every day
new questions arose from within and new answers came from without. They
awakened an echo of something that had been hidden somewhere in the background
of my mind; and as I progressed in my knowledge of Islam, I felt, time and time
again, that a truth I had always known, without being aware of it, was
gradually being uncovered and, as it were, confirmed.”
In Islam, he saw the true meaning of life. It was not a religion but a way of
life, a programme of life, the parts of which were so harmoniously built to
complement each other. But a question still remained in his mind:
“Was Islam truly a message from God or merely
the wisdom of a great, but fallible, man ...?”
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